i know its been a very long time since i last blogged. sorry about that. lets just say, im busy. anyways. life has been great so far. yes, i sometimes feel shitty. but i guess that happens. like all the time.

in life, people com and go as they please. but when they step into my life. i want to treasure them. i never want them to leave. but if leaving is what suits you. then fine. im not going to hold you back. i have no bloody right to. begging or pleading or asking is never going to help. once that person made up their mind, there is no turning it around. i guess this is what life is teaching me. life goes on no matter how hard it gets for you. facing one obstacle was hard enough. why does my life reevovle around losing the most valueable people? it has been that way since .. let me see .. 2009. awesome isnt it? like dominos, everyone leaves. one after another. after one has leave and i am recovered from that, another one goes. taking the fall from the first person.

to you. if you are reading this then im glad. i really am. but i have got a couple of questions for you. did i do or say something wrong till you ignore me for the past 2 days? i texed you asking if you were okay and you did not even answer. if you want to leave then fine. i dont mind. do you know how insane it is? i cannot seem to sleep cause i have no idea what the hell is wrong. did i say or do something to offend you? i just need to know the reason. just please tell me. its killing me. i mean it. i just want to know the reason. that is it. one favour (you know who you are). that is all im asking.

and babe, thanks for being there for me. appreciate it loads. without you, i think i would have already gone mad. litereally. thanks babe, for telling me off like that. thanks for making me feel a whole lot better. god knows what will happen to me if you're not there. so next movie on you okay babe? thank you very much. haha.

okay. so now, i think i shall switch my lappy off so i can finally go to sleep. if i can even sleep that is. will try to update as much as i can since im not working anymore. for now, i guess all i can do is be positive. one fall is all it takes for me to find my strength all over again. okay. happy sleeping(: