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Sunday, April 3, 2011
ohh well. what to do? this is what i asked for. i asked for an answer and i got it. so fck this feeling. i should be glad that you at least responded to my questions. its the least you could do. bet you're feeling the exact same thing. either you're doing a little better or a little worst. obviously you would never show it. but let me tell you this. you better not be keeping this to yourself. i know you that much to know that you keep it to yourself till you cannot take it anymore. but no. do not keep this all to yourself. do not destroy yourself. please dont. ive seen what happens when you do. you yourself saw the effects. please stop doing this to yourself. yes, you are an introvert, i know. but why do you always have to keep it to yourself when the people all around you care so much about you? please stop this mindset that you have. yes, i know you're trying your best to not be an introvert. i know dear. ive seen the struggles. been in the struggle. so i truly understand.and if this is really what you want then so be it. i know i cannot change your thinking. not like this i cant. you're the type that once i get my mind set on it, nothing can change that thinking of mine. unless its not a strong enough decision made by you. i guess that is about all i know about you. and yes, i only realise how selfish i am. now only do i realise what ive never been able to realise before. nonetheless, you will always be with me. no matter what. because you have shown me so much. you taught me alot. yes, it will take time to heal. but il try my best to be alright. to be the person i used to be. only difference is that you wont be around. not like you used to be. not the way i wanted it to be. but well, situations change and so does the people. wish you would take back your decision. but wishing wont make a freaking difference would it now? i know that you have truly made up your mind. guess i got to learn to move on. and you should to. you need to. if you saw me on the streets, please acknowledge me. you acknowledging my presence would hurt but it would be way better than you not acknowledging me at all. i will miss you. i still do. so i guess it is goodbye for now. maybe it'll be forever. im not sure. all i know is that you'd always be where i want you to be, in my heart. hope id be at the same place i used to be. but i doubt so. guess this is it. all the best with your future. if you produce the results they always wanted from you then im happy for you. i guess i really was a barrier for you to be doing great. and for that, im sorry. sorry to have ruined your life and your bright future. whatever lies in the future, i know you willl face them with patience cause ive been one pain in the ass. glad you manage to be very patient. hope you will be all your life. happy living your life. live it to the fullest. okay bye. i need to stop typing. you, my dear, know why.