yes, things happened and there will be some changes. there are bound to be something that changes the situation. something that adjusts everything. something somehow will be different even though its about the same situation. gosh, what the hell is wrong with me. im just blabbing nonsense due to lack some sleep. im so damn tired. body aching. heart just feels strange. ive no idea why or how to get rid of this feeling but i know i need to. someone help me please?

that is why im not letting you go. no matter what, il fight for you to stay. once is more than enough. i never ever want to go through it a second time round. it sucks a whole effing lot that once. im trying to forget it happened. and almost happened again. so close, so damn near. just that one step and everything will be repeated history. haih. it sucks being me. some things will never be alright for me. its hard. i know. gahh. i need to just have a day out with my babe then cry or scream. i just need a day to chill.