hurt in deep misery.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
im so upset due to thursday's incident. why the heck did i see you? more of what were you doing in the east when its not even your schooling day and there is nothing much here at my area. i saw you walking. from far i guessed that it was you. i kept looking at you, you looked at me then you just look away. now im thinking if i was ever your friend back then. it hurts a whole lot to not get acknowledged. i wanted to break down on the spot but my niece was there with me. i had to take care of her. i didnt cry cause i didnt want her to panic and it was public. tell me why i remembered how you looked like even though it was ages(some when last year) when i saw you in reality? can my holiday get any worst? apart form the pile of work i have? ugh. once im done with school homework, ive got other work to do. my brother has a job waiting for me. gahh. this is officially the worst june holiday ever. forget it. i shouldnt even complain cause im going to have to go through this no matter what right Mr S?thanks friend, for making me feel a whole lot more miserable than i already am. despite the fact that i was kind of happy to see you. the ignorance was the most painful thing you ever did to me. thanks for ignoring. did it even occur to you that you've seen me somewhere? i doubt so. i dont even think you care. hope i dont see you around much cause if im going to get ignored just like that. why didnt i acknowledge you? you're the one who decided to just vanish. now just vanish and get out of my head. thanks for all the ignorance, i appreciate it a whole lot.
and to a friend of this friend, im not sure if you still visit this blog of mine, but tell your friend i can never forget how he looks like. i can even remember how you look like clearly. who cares right? i doubt you would bother doing anything even if you know i still remember those small details when we were still close.
Mr S, thanks for being there for me whenever i needed you. you're awesome and i love you for being such a good person to me. thanks for caring and everything. i just dont know how to repary your kindness. i know i can be a total bitch at times. but you're still here for me. just like you've always promised. the promise where you said that you'd be here for me no matter what. and that's what i love about you. that little promise of yours make me very very happy. thanks for being such a good person.
thanks for making me feel super miserable and have such a hard time to sleep. you're very awesome friend. what a friend. thanks. wait, i shouldnt even be thinking of this. cause you didnt even bother to stay in my life so why the hell should i make an effort to stay in yours or to even let you stay in mine? im such a douchebag for being so miserable over someone like you. you may/may not know who you are. but this hint might tell you who you are. thursday around 3.30 pm at bedok interchange in your specs, blue shirt, cargo pants, black backpack and a camera in one of your hand, if im not wrong its on the right. you figure out who you are okay? bye.